I hope you stop drinking and get better!   I remember when you said you feel like you can't have a good time without drinking, I disagree, you can have fun without drinking!  You can go out to the movies with friends and hang out with them without drinking!!  I have not drank ever and I have fun with my friends, I have a good time too.  I think drinking is from the devil and not from Heavenly Father!  I don't understand why people like to drink so much!  I don't think drinking is very much fun at all, and after you are drunk you get to have fun with being sick throwing up and hangover, doesn't sound fun to me!  If you have problems, drinking is not the answer, it might be comforting at first but it won't help the problem.  So why start dinking, it stupid and dumb!  I know there are pressers out there to drink and to smoke but don't do it stay away from it, be strong!  Because it is so hard to stop smoking and drinking after you start so not start. 

I have neighbors who smoke and I hate smiling it, even when I am in my backyard, it makes me cough and chock.  I like my neighbors but I don' like when they smke especially when I am talking to them.  My nieghbors also drink, and I wonder why.  Do they think it looks cool or something?  I just want to be their friends but I can't do that when they drinking ang smoking.

I get so sad when I hear that someone has lung cancer and they didn't even smoke!

I wish you the best, smartdog